“Whoever is wise, let him understand these things; Whoever is discerning, let him know them. For the ways of the LORD are right, And the righteous will walk in them, But transgressors will stumble in them.”
– Hosea 14:9
God’s Will is Your Deepest Desire
When the option of forming my own congregation went up in smoke, I was already 30 years old.
I knew I had to make a choice.
So I went up a mountain with nothing else but a Bible and a wise Jesuit priest. For seven days, I holed myself on that mountain. I was determined that when I went down, I would already have a decision.
I recall that my first three days on that mountain was pure torture. I wrestled with God and found no answer. He wasn’t telling me what I should do with my life.
But on the fourth day, my spiritual director said that his fellow Jesuit Fr. Manoling Francisco, the composer of Hindi Kita Malilimutan and many other beautiful songs, had a concert at the parish church nearby. Would I want to listen? he asked.
I told him that Manoling was my friend. Yes, I’d love to go.
So I went there and listened to his lovely music.
But in between his songs, Fr. Manoling said these powerful words that blew me away, “We think that God’s will is found out there, somewhere in the stars. That’s not true. God’s will is found within. Ultimately, God’s will is your deepest desire.”
What did he say?
Wham! It was like a missile that had my name on it.
My gosh, what are my deepest desires?
What do I really want?
No, not my shallow desires.
But the desire from the deepest core of who I am.
What do I really, really want?
Everything made sense to me. Of course, God’s will is my deepest desire!
Sometimes, it takes years to discover this. But through the sharp scalpel of discernment, you peel away your superficial desires, layer after layer, until you touch base with the deepest desire of your heart.
God’s will is your deepest desire.
Because when He created you, He planted it there — deep within your soul.
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